maybe you'll dance the funky chicken at your 75th wedding anniversary

so i must have some problem with time.
in my first post ever, i talked about how i had a late start at school and forgot about it.

don't worry, i'm not smooth enough to let it end there.
monday morning i THOUGHT it was a late start, slept in an extra hour, the drill. had a fabulous breakfast made my tea in the DISPOSABLE CUPS and went on my way to school. and when i got there every spot was filled, the busses were parked, oh and the teachers werent fiercely directing traffic....considering there wasn't any traffic. whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat the hell is going on here. i realized what it was. there wasn't a damn late start. i just missed first period. which is fab.

otherwise, i wrote a little reflective essay for school today and i figured that i'd share that with all of you.
enjoy :)

Since the first day of Kindergarten, we've all been asked to think about the future. If you went to my school, you probably have a poster you filled out on the first day of school, expressing your three wishes and of course, what you want to be when you "grow up." As for me, my poster says a few simple things. I wished for a baby sister, and upstairs in my house, and 37 dollars. When I grew up, I wanted to be a superstar and a mom. Simple as that. Just like me, at that age, everbody knew what they wanted. A few luxuries, like 37 dollars, and a job that we truly enjoyed. With our thriving imaginations, nothing seemed impossible.We lived with the simplest and most optimistic outlook on life, yet were constantly pushed to think about the future. When I think back on my childhood, and when I used my imagination, it always involved the future. Now granted, I was seriously using my imagination, but I was always imitating a variety of lifestyles. Sometime's I was getting married and raising a family, I was an elderly woman, or a waitress. Other times I was an orthodontist, an architecht, or a rockstar. Although all of that was about being a kid, I can't ever think of the times where I really wanted tosavor my childhood as long as I could. When I turned seven, all I could think about was being a teenager. Sixteen, to be the prime age. I thought being a teenager was the peak of cool status, the most desired point in life. I fantasized about being in high school and driving a car. It seemed like the most exciting time of life. And here I am, sixteen, in high school and driving a car. Desperately trying to find a job, worrying about paying for gas. My head spins around college and school, and the pressures of being youg in today's society. And in the few moments that my imagination is really lively, I'm usually already in bed, trying to fight the anxiety and insomnia just to catch a few z's before the next day comes. What I wish I kept most is my outlook on life as a child. I think if I were given a choice to bottle anything, it would be that. I regret not savoring the views I had while I was a kid. I know I can't really blame myself, because how was I supposed to know how valuable it is to see life through a child's eyes. Its not really understandable until we grow out of it. In the words of Baz Lurhman's sunscreen song, "Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded." And that is truth. I guess the one thing we can all learn from this, is just that, to enjoy the power and beauty of our youth. I try to do that as often as possible, to live freely. Because the closer and closer I get to becoming what I always wanted to be as a child, the more and more I just want to go back and live life the way a child does.

ENJOY THE POWER AND BEAUTY OF YOUR YOUTH! LALALALA.