i know i haven't blogged in a few days but i have a lot on my mind so i figured i would jump on here and let it all out.
my current soundtrack is..well only the best. im watching a live john mayer concert. the current song is why georgia...one of my favorites "so what so ive got a smile on and its hiding the quiet superstitions in my head." what a fantastic song. well every song. its just beautiful to listen to.
we'll do serious first.....ready?
im lonely. so damn lonely. i guess i just don't have "someone". last night i was at a party and i was looking around and there are people who have eachother and i have noone. its probably healthy for me, and i do understand that. but i have a huge heart, and a lot of love to give, and don't know what to do with it when im not giving it out. i want someone who will play guitar to me, someone whos gorgeous and mysterious and complicated and deep but mellow and simple all at the same time. but i think we all want that someway, somehow. and we all have it at some point, and we all lose it at others. its the kind of thing when you dont know what youve got until its gone. its the kind of thing where you want what you dont have. because when you have it its hard. so hard. and when you dont. its so lonely. maybe i just miss the comfort. i dont know. but im looking for it again. im ready to reel it in. im at that point.
so as far as the other stuff goes...
yesterday was homecoming. it was a great day to say the least. the first thing i did was head over to lilly nails and get my nails done. always a good time. i love to get my nails done. after that i went to lunch and had a buff chick wrap (buffalo chicken wrap) which is only the greatest thing on this planet. um so delicious i can barely talk about it. then i went home and began the beautifying process. shave and shower. check. eyebrows. check. blowdry my hair. check. that part was interesting. i have about two pounds of hair so when blowdried its about oh 13 inches wide. cute i know. so immediately straightened it to perfection. then i added my beautifully long extensions, did my makeup, put on my dress, and voila, i was alllll fancy. i met my date, did the whole pictures thing, we did the whole dinner thing, it was nice. then we went to the dance. it was steamingly hot in there but a good time nonetheless. it made me miss camp so much though. jump on it comes on...im the only one that knows the damn dance. cotton eyed joe comes on...im the only one that knows the damn dance. and im liek wtf people why dont you know this shit? and there was no cupid shuffle and i was about to fucking punch someone. but otherwise it was great :). next came the after parties. first i went to one where basically none of my friends were but i went with a friend but it was still fun. then i went to one where all of my friends were. lets just say i got loosened up and was dancing around the house until two in the morning. and now today im so effing tired i cant even move. im just ready to start summer. whos with me?
enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. lalalala
1 comment:
You sound pretty high stress Chloe. You need to relax a bit, calm down and try not to worry about things so much. You'll be fine in school, I have confidence in you. You won't be lonely forever. Everyone has those times and although they are terrible, they don't last forever. Try to live a stress free lifestyle like I do. I doesn't always work but it sure helps. There are people who are there for you if you need them. Just some old man advice, take it or leave it. Have a nice day.
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