the nerd in me

confession: i just recorded myself singing to see how GOOD i sounded. HAH!
the fact that i just confessed that on my blog is embarassing.

don't worry, i sound horrible. like a little mouse going through puberty.

but anyways right now im listening to let me fall by bethany joy galeotti otherwise known as haley james scott.
as the lyrics go:
let me feel
i dont care if i breakdown
let me fall
even if i hit the ground
and if i cry a little, die a little
at least i know i lived just a little.

take chances. cross the line. do something, not knowing what will happen in the end. because even if it hurts, even if i cry a little, and die a little, i tried.

thats what i've learned lately. comfort and security aren't always your best bet. i put myself through three years of tough stuff because i was afraid of stepping outside of the comfort zone. i was afraid of letting myself feel vulnerable.
i'm stronger than i thought i was. im tougher. im better.

believe in yourself. the most important words we hear, words we seem to ignore. but if you believe in yourself, trust in yourself, your living your life.

and now for today:

another confession- so because ive been in the cold weather the past few days, well i haven't shaved my legs. i was wearing pants so nobody could see so it didn't matter right? wrong. i got home last night and was too tired to shave my legs so i said to myself, "i'll wear pants to school tomorrow." but see the thing about living in hot weather is i only have two pairs of pants appropriate for school. one pair i wore the last time i was at school and i can't just repeat the outfit THAT soon. so i go to bed expecting to wake up and put on the other pair of pants. just my luck. they are NOWHERE to be found. and when i say nowhere i mean they have vanished. are you effing serious? my clothes vanish all the damn time and then im in a pickle. i had to go to school with man legs. i wanted to barf all over myself. luckily the weather was beautiful and i dont think too many people noticed my grotesque self. although stress is high, life goes on.
maybe ill just keep singing.

enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. lalalala